If don't have me , would D. be happier ?
i'm sick of being useless person
sick of being bad person
sick of being always make dear unhappy
no matter what i done , i never be the first
i say i'm not , then im not
if don't trust me for the first time , why still be with me .
if don't trust me how can i supposed to live happily with you
I am afraid to love, and yet I love you.
My fear is like a wall I walk right through.
The wall is there, and yet it doesn't stop me.
I need it still, and yet I still need you.
Needing you without a reason why. But now I'm still afraid that I might lose you,
That you might not accept my desperate need.
You make me laugh and cry and be completely.
You are the flower, I the slender reed.
i never lost any of love or any of afraid dear
dear didnt notice how much i scare everytime
and everytime when dear wan breek
i can gone crazy
coz i am afraid yet i cant control my emotion
it hurts alot dear...
my heart ady been so many hole
untrust me...
how could you ....
always i let you unhappy
ady make being so stressed dear
sometime i think if i left dear wil find more happier and become more happier person
bt i cant let dear go
i cant be able to defeat this love
its to strong...i dont know why
you done everything that i dislike
never done what i wish
you done something make im so hurt and restless
bt stil i so love you dear...
i am nt willing dear belong to another person
if i really doesnt saying the truth
if i really doesnt not so love dear so much anymore
tell me why did my tears always get to rolling down everytime i thinking of you ?
i cant everytime always being afraid
i felt exhausted...
I'm not afraid of dying and I'm not afraid of death
I'm not afraid of hurting or taking my last breath
I'm not ashamed to cry or to miss you when you're gone
I'm not too weak to get over you if you ever move on
I don't fear not living life cuz I've lived it up a lot
I'm not afraid to experience things I'd rather not be taught
I'm used to not being anybody to anyone but me
I'm used to faking smiles everyday just for you to see
I'm strong enough to laugh even when I'm blue
I'm not scared of much I'm just scared of losing you
if that ment to be or not ment to be?
my heart always being make to be broken
yet stil i sit and try to put it back and fix it
with every tears and yet i stil can felt such a pain even its ady break into pieces
trust me
love me
care me
hold me
dont simply let go....
i need ur love
only always ur love....Dear J...
