Today morning when i wake up
i have a strange feeling
a feeling that i will lost you ...
that you'll leave me...
i noe i'll never wil be a perfect gf for you...
and i noe u wont choose me as ur partner of life
bt can you give me more memories to reminisce?
even it would be painfull when i think back of it
at least i ever once appear in ur life and ever be one of ur love...
DD , you know i love you so much...
i even ever told you..
if you have another gf...
i wont mind yes.
i wont mind and yet i wil always forgive no matter how many times it was .
will you , bcause i had love you so much and then u wil use me and hurt me?
i noe u wont...
it just im thinking too much...
cant blame me..
it bcoz i love you too much..
sometimes when fighting. .
when i look ar ur mad face,
i wil felt very pain and useless and everytime DD telling me are tired...
i wish i could jst let you ...
i wish..i am strong...
bt i am not..
im weak...without you...
DD aso say wan move out and stay outside
im so worry you know
what if when we quarrel....
what if there any girl try to take u from me?
what if.. there's too much " what if "....
if i choose to leave...
if i leave , what dear do when finish work on saturday?
if i leave , what dear doing on sunday ?
if i leave , who dear always chatting til late night ?
if i leave , who will mask dear face?
if i leave, who make dear jelly while waiting dear finish work?
if i leave , who lips dear will kiss?
if i leave , whose hand dear will hold?
if i leave , will dear felt empty and felt lonely bcoz sumting have missing?
One years for us almost coming dear...
at least i hope dear could taste my love for dear...
the cookies i made for dear...
its all my love dear...
yet it was so broken , cold outside . .
but it was taste sweet and could make dear smile when dear eat it
[ i hope my cookies could tasty like the way my love does ]
sometimes when we quarrel and im crying...
actually i was waiting your hug...
if dear can give me one hug...
i maybe will cry out all my tears..
and i will be very happy...
coz dear dont know..
how weak i am..
and how much i need ur warm and care...
i aso always thinking abt our future dear...
i noe we always fighting dear
jst sometimes i step away our fighting and thinking hw to be more good with you dear..
i hope dear trust me that i am trying my best to make u happy ....
i know im really not good...
and dear.. sometimes all i want jst a lil bit care..
bt its alright dear...
i have to used to it from now...
instead of care... i am more wish dear wouldnt say break up or leave me
somtimes it was me to get excited with so many things
and yet i fall to dissapointment
but even tough almost all time i get dissapointed
my love stil strong enuf and keep strong
weird ?
ya.. even tough my heart was pain.
.till i can felt it all over my body yet i stil wil fix it bymself..
once i fall in love , it was hard for me to go back .
nw the feeling i have inside was bitter sweet...
can you see how much i love you deaR?
t.t im dying to get ur love dear...
im really dying....
i wish sometimes it was dear that ask me to stay...
bcoz im so sad to have this feels..
to have that everytime it was to force dear stay...
if i get sick now , would dear wil take good care on me ?
and once really look at me?
eventough i always cry and sad
bt it more sad for me to saw u leaving me dear
i think all ppl out there noe
how painfull to watch the one you love walking out from you..
can i stay with you forever dear?
can i really?
actually i noe dear nt happy at all..
but give me sometime to learn can dear?
coz if dear leave now..
i dont know why shud i do..
i reallyh dont know...
when dear are saying break to me
dear noe how bad i am?
i cry til i sleep...
cry when i wake up
cry when i bath
cry when im at bas
cry when im walking inside school
i even dnt know what shud i cry of
if i really wil happy without you dear
im sure LAUGH happily instead of crying sadly isnt it my dear?
before dear wil ask me not to give up..
but the present of dear now..
was giving up...
sometimes i really miss the past of you
but past is past
what have gone is gone
but its okay
as long dear stay with me
what bitter i shud face
i face it all .
11 days to our 1 years annivesary
excited that day..
i always get excited. . .
I love you more than all the stars in the sky.
I love you more as each moment passes us by.
I love you more with every breath I take.
I love you more with each promise we make.
I need you like a flower needs the rain.
I need you for you can wash away my pain.
I need you more each day
I need you for you are so wonderful, in every single way.
I miss you more than ever now.
I miss you because I really need you somehow.
I miss you and your touch.
I miss you for to me, you mean so much.
I want you to caress my lips the way you always do.
I want you to look into my eyes and see my love for you.
I want you to hold me close to your heart.
I want you to know that I love you, need you, miss you, and want you
And I have for every single moment, right from the start.
