Nothing has changed;I love you still...more than ever.When you're not near me, I
feel an emptiness that I can't seem to fill.
When you are near, I feel complete.
I never imagined that someone could be as important as you are to me.
Please stay near and love me as I love you. Happy 13 months anniversary dear...i always love you .. no matter what its is come my way...
smile?
happy everyday?
i am so pressure...
my back and my head always pain ....
i wish i could relax my self
i want but i cant!
i cant...
i dont feel safety like last year...
there's so many thing i wish i could tell
bt if i tell it
who can understand
who can comfort me
who will wipe my tears and then swab my head and whisper to me
" its all be alright..i am here..never gonna leave you again.."
all i wish was that dear..
not just in mouth ...
but heart to heart...
i never wan to born with bad temper
never want it .
its too late?
how hurt its for me...
my love is true..
cant you see it...
i dont wan to live with regret everyday...
there so many thing i keep it..
each day by day ..
i keep it myself...
jst bcause i dont hope between of us changing...
when i say i will do it..
i'll do it..
it just a matter of time...
for all thing i done..
its not enuf yet for you to see
that i am really love you dear....
and if dear say if i am so suffer...
why stil have to be with dear
and together like this it wont have meaning...
but for me...
altough i am suffer...
but i love you so much dear..
its not easy to put all this thing down...
i am more suffer if i am lose you .
for me..
all was meaning if you stay dear...
if only you didnt wan to separated...
its all meaning...
dear wan to know how much i love dear...
and always wan hear any answer from me...
but dear...
i needed it too...
i cry for no reason...
but i noe why i cry for...
i came for no babyhood,childhood memories ...
from a cold family...
sometimes i just think that i could have more care ...
just a little more...
but i didnt expect it anymore...
i only wan you to stay..
i dont care what my heart hunger for...
just stay ...
i dont need rich man
romantic man
what else good man in this world
i need you
you
and you dear.
i need you to not give up me...
not to give up us...
last year..
i didnt give up...
so dear..
cant dont give up...
see for what i am...
when dear fall asleep..
dear noe what im doing...
im crying ..
praying to God...
for someone i love
that i hope him will never wan to leave me again..
everytime i pray..
everytime i hurt...
everytime i fell down...
i didnt give up to keep praying...
because its was my love for you ..
which love...which hates..
i cant different it from you dear...
just dont leave..
i do really very sad ...
everyday in my life....
[picture just another of me to pretend that im living well ] 
