17.10.2010

i fall asleep at 5 am and wake in early morning
then i go to market with boyf. to pick up some clothes for mom birthday
but he's not having breakfast because he already eat first
we going with my mom , because my grandma want to follow
so ask my boyf. for help
we back home about 10.30 am like that
then boyf. came to my home first
to pick something that mom wants to give him
after i take some clothes , i'm going to my boyf. home
about 4 pm like that , we going out again
to Gurney with my mom and grandma
mom buy me a recipe book
i was so happy =]
i love recipe book!
and boyf. said he would like to bake a cake with one day.
waiting .
then we going to Toy R us
grandma wants to buy toys for her grandchildren
last , we going to CB to fill our stomach
its been a long time we have not eat at there again
meet an old staff
she asked 2 of us , if we can back to work at there again
today was have a lot of memory
boyf. bought me a hair band
i like it <3
i could feel that my mom like boyf. a lot
well..that's was very very very very good!
i told boyf. when at car
but he cut it up at the first
i was kinda down.
but its alright
i told him the second
i told him
"it was very sad we have to separated after our parents have confidence of us"
i dont know this word work for him or not
but i know it myself

i have to thanks to boyf. today for give me a lot memories
i was so so so so happy
i wish i can be like this everyday
our memories has been adding up
i swear i would never forget this


for i know it was the last time




19.10.2010
i was exhausted
i tired of waiting something that would never find me .
i really disappoint and heartbroken
well. fine
i really don't feel being appreciate
even i was unhappy
u cant do anything to cheer me?
but u are using your emotional to fight me!
fine .
if one day your gf going to some other girls home
you will know how it feels .
i have a lot a lot and uneasy thing in my heart!
from this hurt that you have cause
i will rise =]
so you just keep hurting me

when i give you a surprise with cupcake
you dont have any response
if i dont ask you , you like or not
you wont give me any response too

not only this.

talk more sad more .

you only will use your emotional to hurt me
your eyes and your talking when you beh syok me


my baby Jayden, mom still not forgetting you
always have you in my mind everyday
mom really sorry ...
mom hopes your dad never forget you too
dont get sad baby...