Yay, cant sleep here
its been 4 am ==
a lot things of my mind
wondering
when can i feel being appreciate,being protected,being in love?

i already pass my 500 days love
sorry
nothing to write here
coz i even dont have any things to talk
the day i have expected just gone like this
i would never have another 500 days again
=x
too bad.but i was fine here
i'm still breathing here .


this year almost pass
soon next year was coming
and i hope it will came more faster
coz i cant wait to graduated soon
my new school
they having prom night for every graduated student
wow.cool
i tot i would never have chance to be in prom night .LOL
final exam was coming
bless me,Amen
and for sure holidae was coming too
ngek ngek
for sure i'll spend my holidae with working!
because the time with my boyf. was not much
i have to get used to it

i have to prepare everything for next year
for my future and everything
include my love inside .

i cant found someone to talk
so i come up here ,try to speak out whats in my mind
but i found out it was really hard
because . . . .
if i taking a wrong step,i'll be dead
so i have to watch out everything that i wan to speak

why i dont wan to try to be honest to myself
that i was expecting more
i accept everything just they way it was
but why it getting worst?

izzit hard for you to care someone?
if you really love her?
izzit it was hard for you to find her?
if you noe she was always waiting for you
izzit its hard for you to show some gentle when you are mad?
all she waiting just a smile
izzit hard for you to try harder when she was unhappy?

if you really do love her and care about her...


i really so sad , hurt ,and dissapointed
but who cares?

its alright..
you can keep hurting me,sweety..
i wanted you to continue everything
till i cant feel anything anymore ...



thanks for the another happy days that you ever give me darling =]
i hope you enjoy it
and dont forget about me
love you J