i really really so tired now
first day try to forgetting you are harder than i thought
i was okay suddenly
but when i chat with Jeko
i am super down...
i ask Jeko will he have a gf soon..
she said mayb
i ask why
she said i feel will have a girl crazy him

what the fuck
thats word likes killing me
ya , i know he will forget me soon
i know he will have a gf within one month
soon he going to throw all the things i gave him
he going to love another woman
he going to start his life his another woman
and bla bla bla
ya, i do know it all
but it just i cant accept it now
i really cant imagine how he going to threw all my things
i already hurt enough he ignore me

for one week we break up
i cried much for one week
i dont wan to cry anymore
i cant sleep everynight
just thinking this annoying things
i hurt my hands when i work
jst thinking this sucks thing
i have enough....

what the fuck is going on with me
i am so so so tired

this like a nightmare
but what worst is
even when i am wake up
this nightmare still keep going on..

someone wakes me up...
i really so suffer now....

i really want to forget him
bt not bcoz what he had done to me
but i dont want to make him harder
both of us can have a better life
its not that i dont want to see him with another girl
sure i want him to be happy
it just i cant accept it
God knew that i love him so much
and how much i always love him
my prays always have him inside
i will be so sad if he had another love that fast...
i know he even wont care my feeling
if i forget him soon
nothing will be wrong write?