[i wonder do you look alike me?] =]

i want to wish my baby in heaven
Merry Christmas... : )
now was 24
its Christmas Eve
i will write a letter for Santa
Mom will help you to write a letter for Santa Clause okay?
make sure Santa get you a present ^^
when i get my salary
mom buy you a present ^^
i think there's is no Snow in Heaven rite?
i hope dont have
because i dont want you to get cold there...
yesterday i didnt work
i saw many nice clothes there
probably some will suit you sweet heart
buy you some jacket
so u can wear it while you cold...
take care yourself there...
when my times come...
i'll be there with you...
be good , while i am not around...
i'll always watching you..even you are far away in the sky there...

sorry ...
if only i didnt make mistake...
you wont be waste away...
i am sorry...
i do really sorry...
in this life time...
i'll never forgive myself..
for what i have done to you...

i am so pressure baby...
i love you ...
i do really want you...
i want to share something...
i think you already know ,what do mom confusing now rite??
mom do really cofused...=[
wish you are here...

for you, ...
why do we go so wrong..
why everything have to be so complicated?
do we really nid stay like this forever?

i wish i could go far far away from here...
wishing there would be no more stressed in my life

how my heart pain saw you like this tonight...
you can hurt me
but i am not allowed you to hurt urself

i dont know whats happening inside me...
but i am struggling inside...
do anyone know my heart bleeding inside?

do you even know , i have already stay so long here...waiting you...
i stay , i hurt
i leave , i hurt

which way for me that i wont be hurt?

"dont go "

i longing to hear it for a long time

but i never really heard it

it might be to late now...

doesnt it , jayden?