i'm sick
damn bad sick
fever and my body in pain

its only 3 days
but i nearing die .
why am i being so useless

i thought i was already moving on?
dont i ?
but i still stuck here
stuck with the memories and all the promises

i wish i am fever until i can lost memory rite now!

i thought i would never cry anymore...
i thought i would never love him anymore
i thought i would never flash back anymore
its too many " thought"

i meet my sister just now
first thing she said to when she saw me
that i am become thinner
should i proud or sad?

truly say, i feel stressed here
i have a lot pressure and a lot of pain that i have to bear alone

now i have to bear this pain
the pain that he caused

what have i done?
i already done everything that what should i done
i give everything , i sacrificed everything

its not because our problem rite?
u probably have someone else in ur hearts
or u not love me anymore
just told me clearly...
its not abt the problem rite?
i dont like to be leave in silence

i dont like to be torn apart
i dont like to be leave in silence

am i not perfect or good enough?

Christmas that i have planned
it become a dust ....
and useless dust
am i right ? that i am going to pass this Christmas with disappointed



loving someone its not a easy thing
especially when i have fall too deep...