i know you probably thinking i was a mess
my whole family and i was mess

and if you thinking that when you telling me about your family
i will feel like annoying
no.
you are wrong
i do feel jealous
but i dont feel like somekind bad
and i was happy
too see someone i care , having a great and loving family

i am not that kind of girl that will feel jealousy and have a bad feeling for someone
i do think too much
i do hard to trust someone
i do have bad emotion
but i wont harm someone i love

which people dont want to be loved?

before i will take compare
why my family was different with others
but i dont really matter about it now

before i want someone to love me
and hell yea
i lack of parents love
and i need someone to give me love
but i am a big girl now
that dont matter to me
no matter who love or hate me
it still my life
and i still will live it...
and if i do really need someone to love me
i already leave you long long time ago

all this time i was giving more than i take
if you do really care about me
you should giving me more attention ,rite?

but if i am telling the problem
nothing i would get

you are not me
how can you know my feeling?
even sometimes myself dont even know what im feeling


i was sad when you told me that
that i was feel like "beh song" when you tell me about your family

you are so wrong

i ever wish to God
i wish that nobody would be same like me
and i wont never ever let my children having the same pain with me

we all need love
but to get love
we have to love...

i have already give you love
so can i have your love too?


as far i know
i get nothing...